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閒暇時光

深夜或是早晨，都喝一杯不加糖或奶的黑咖啡，來面對某一時刻必要的純粹。這時耳邊的音樂通常是塞隆尼斯･孟克那孤寂卻又不急著與人們搭上關係的音符，「this is my story｣他用著強勁且緩慢的鋼琴聲，訴說自己的人生。


而更多時候，我是閉上雙眼去聆聽那屬於孟克的單向傾訴與感受單品咖啡隨著時間逐漸失溫，使得口味層層變換的神奇時刻。應該沒有什麼比爵士樂CD和咖啡再神奇和矛盾的組合了吧！一個是睥睨時間使人們如我在一甲子後還可以聽到當時靈魂的敲擊，一個則在沖泡後，喝的過程中有三次以上味覺的轉變。


所以當我放著音樂，喝咖啡的同時，經歷的是時間的永恆性與否的對話，時間以不同型式被保存與釋放在一個只有我能開啟或關閉的場域裡，透過我，永恆與瞬間得以相遇，其衝擊到的是我自以為停止活動的放鬆，原來活力這麼強。


但也只有這種放鬆的時刻，才能讓一個人的精神接觸到時間想表達的層面，活在當下的時間是不會停止的，但這卻不妨礙在自己的時間加上許多層次－永久過去的、即時立刻的－使每一時刻都跳動在閒暇裡，如同古希臘哲人說：「閒暇時光，是自己鑽研自己是什麽的好機會°」

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