Hao's Life

So I am leaving Leeds 3 days from now with a bit of sadness and very much excitement. Leeds is never a beautiful city, even it has much more sun shine than any other city I have ever been in the UK, and, trust me, I have been to lots of them. It is that the people make this place beautiful. It is always better to have a friend or two to lie down on the grass to enjoy the sunny day than do the sunbath alone. And it is always more enjoyable to go shopping or having tea time with friends than experiencing the solitude by myself. And I didn't know that until travelling to the UK with my shadow only an year and half ago. People are generally nice here although I had some bad experience confronting with the strangers. But bad luck doesn't count, it is just not lucky enough. Anyway, everything is nicer when it is time to go, at least for me, it is. Leeds is not pretty, but Leeds has it's face--a face mixes nature with old and new and half-finished buildings. It is a rejuvenating c

I was very happy to receive an email from my old friend from Taiwan 20 mins after I wrote to him yesterday. Quick replying my email really shows the good thing about the Internet that email is not mail, and it waste no time on the posing. Quick email also brought a quick potential offer of my future--an opportunity to work with some old friends, an adventure of exploring the ocean of future with some of my best friends. It is also a scenario of one-piece, my favor comic book. We can fight for the greatest treasure on the map of ocean, but, do I need the treasure? Or, what is the dearest treasure for me? In the email I wrote to my friend, I said that there is no prefect choice for life, there is only an unregerttable choice. In economic terms, we can only make the decision with least opportunity cost, but not the one you can earn most. There was a moment that I really want to fly back right away to do my best in their team, there WAS. So why I am still here? there is a voice in my mind

It was very good to attend friends concert, and it was even better to enjoy the night in the Liverpool with Ryan and his music. It was my third time to listen to his band's performance and they have been improved a lot since 2 years ago, although his hand is not very convenient to swing or slap the drum as usual, still he brought a good show to me. And the view was amazing along the sea. It is the light which give me such a pleasure even I know most of time all those great view in the dark night are nothing but the illusion of light. I enjoyed the mixture of new building and old Cathedral, the light from full moon and city light, with the breeze from the sea, I can smell the salt from the dark sea front taking me to the deck of mysterious boat. It is Liverpool, the place where I was on board a memorable night.

To be honest, handing in Cv to the retailing store is quite a good fun although long walking to everywhere makes me feel like a dunky--very durable and honest to go forward step by step. Of course, it would be great that I could get a job after this long hunting. I hunt job, and wish all those "preys" can bite me back, at least a bite of inerview. However, this is not the office job, not the "25000 up" ponds job, but it is a job. A job which allows me to dress well, to talk to and observe people. The most important, a job for me to live in London. It has not come yet, but it will be. If 36 CVs to the shops are not enough, then I will hand in 72 copies of them. One of them in this hugh Lodon will be accepted by one gifted manager eventually. Back to CV, I prefer to apply in person rather than apply on line, although it seems that on-line applying is more formal than just pop in the store and say: "hey, is it possible for me to drop my CV here if there is any van

後來有很長的時間他一直覺得自己的下巴歪歪的，而且不怎麼固定，像是又回到了兒時骨頭膠質豐富的時期，手一壓，下巴就稍稍的偏回來，上齒和下齒便可以咬合，手一放，對著鏡子張口閉口的下巴又會微微的向右偏了回去，上下排牙齒便彷彿在不同空間似的沒有交集的各自運作著。 他常常的問女友關於自己下巴的”正確性” ，是否跟受傷前一樣，女友每次也不厭其煩的認真的端詳許久，然後說似乎有稍微向右偏的傾向，不過每次一定又會加一句，不管怎樣，在我眼中你都一樣。但是他通常都只聽到的上半段就急忙起身去照鏡子，在鏡前故作咀嚼般的看著下巴的移動。似乎真的不那麼端正了，歪了這麼幾公厘的下巴竟讓我看起來這麼蠢，他忿忿的想著。常常都要過了5分10分他才會悻悻然的從廁所出來，用一種充滿自信的口吻說，歪這麼一點，無傷無傷，但神情卻顯漠落，像是全身的自信來源都繫於那長長的下巴，一歪，就甚麼都不正，什麼都靠不住了，連信心也煙似的消散在空中。 甚至他還開始翻起過去的照片，近照像是幾周前到處遊山玩水的模樣，舊照如幾年前還台灣生活的家常照片，別人看照片會不勝唏噓的感嘆光陰飛逝，照片裡的景色依舊，而照裡的人卻變了許多，像是分手的女友，兒時的朋友，日漸蒼老的父母和被時間催促著長大的自己。他看著這些照片也長吁短嘆，但專注點都只有自己那原本健全的下巴，看著看著有時他還覺得下巴原本就不是用鉛錘測量直線一般垂直的正，沒有人的五官是對稱的，下巴也是一樣，這個結論他每看一次照片裡的自己就會下一次，但每每又在視線對上自己鏡裡的下巴時又推翻一次，反反覆覆如今他自己也搞不清原本下巴有沒有歪了。 他還養成了一個怪僻，走在路上總會盯著吃漢堡或三明治的人的嘴巴看，對於那些嘴巴可以輕鬆張大的人他投以羨慕的眼光，並且他還愛測量每個人將食物靠近嘴巴與嘴巴張開要咬下去的瞬間的距離，有的人還在遠遠的時候就張開了嘴等待食物靠近，有的人不到漢堡觸到了嘴唇絕不張大，有的人還會將食物拉近又放遠，像是享受又像是測量吃東西的完美距離。但同樣的是，食物到口的當下，絕對是即刻咬下去，毫無半點怠慢，像鯊魚獵食一般的迅速，這一點人類與冷血動物完全一樣，萬物冥冥中都有個相似點，他為此特地也下了個結論。 當然從此以後路人的下巴也是他主要的觀察區，英國人的下巴有稜有角，即使胖，下巴也是翹翹的耸著，彷彿下巴本身是一個獨立的器官，雖負責咀嚼食物提供足以養胖身體的養分，但卻超然的不受祿，永遠嶙

所以說我們都在掩飾謊言 謊言是真實的影子，而影子卻在我背後 (如果面對太陽的話) 唯一的真實似乎只剩太陽了，但觸碰太陽卻是一件那麼遙不可及 並且傷人的行徑。 持續說謊或是被撒謊吧，為了妳我所以為的自己的真實。 陰涼的百年榕樹就是這樣被灌溉的默默茁壯的方式，就像我們以為的自己的人生

倫敦路邊的咖啡站，有時候一旦單純的喝咖啡或排隊等咖啡被拍了下來以後，一個瞬間的動作就變成了永久的定格，一切彷彿就變的戲劇化起來，被截取的舉手投足也莫名得不可思議起來。 特別的店頭設計，超大的籠子，願意被關的應該就只有店員了巴... 所謂的襯裙巷，一大堆topshop剪標品，還有很多知名女裝，全部10鎊以內，甚至兩件五鎊，還去牛津圓環買什麼呢?? 躲在倫敦市中心的便宜貨集散地，添增了倫敦多樣化的面貌 創意髮飾，好看實用但好像不太舒服... 努力秀創意髮飾的義大利老闆 帽子，很多的帽子 大特價，sale標語一定要清晰可見，只是對我來說多數商品打折後還是不敢恭維... 爸爸帶著小女兒在舊書攤尋寶，爸爸認真翻著散裝的書頁，小女兒也若有其事的看著雜亂的插圖 假人模特兒依該是最時尚的指標了巴，而真人買衣服似乎只是為了跟假人媲美，雖然穿得漂亮就好，但心裡總是覺得怪怪的

八月中的倫敦 反覆下雨又放晴的天空 潮溼但仍能放心臥坐的草地 我放鬆的在這個小小的公園裡野餐 秋天，以落葉的形式也提前來這草地上享樂 又一個秋天，秋天總是讓人不禁對這世界多思考幾分 前年的秋天我剛來英國念書，去年的秋天 我正要完成畢業論文然後畢業 今天的秋天的我呢? 就像這一片落葉，毫不起眼但的確佔了這個城市一些空間般的 準備遷入倫敦，準備討生活，準備被地鐵的人潮給淹沒 準備在收割的季節播下新的種子，也許。 "落紅不是無情物，化作春泥更護花" 那落葉呢? 落葉應當歸根還是持續的飄零? 在英國夏天的尾巴感受到的浮動以及悶熱空氣造成的不安 似乎正同節奏的把我推向前，而我將會離所謂的目標越來越近，還是 越來越遠?

Apparently this building has recently awarded as the best tall building in the Europe, and this title has forced me to value it again. I never feel comfortable with this orange rusty building every time I pass by. It is like a poisonous stick pins in my beating heart. It is a thing should not be located in this area, Leeds. Why? just because it is new, but look old, and it is young comparing with the white house in front of it, but looks very threatening, even the clouds have to give a way for it. The future is going to devour the present and past with the ugly looking but high technology (it is the weird shape that help winds go through the building easily and save the energy to win the prize), evolution is not always better looking, but better efficiency... I surrender. Not because it looks better after wining the golden medal, but because I am stunned by the designer's creativity--"the most unacceptable idea usually leads the trend". Anyway, I feel good that before I s

Every city needs an island for peace, and every island has a city to embrace the life city island is the movie telling the story in one family which has lots of secrets from every family member and nobody dares to share them with each other because they don't know how to start to talk about them. Those secrets are really nothing big deal as long as they say it out, however, it is also the most difficult part of life--to speak out something that you think is better to stay with yourself. And to have relationship with either family members, lovers, or friends, finding a right timing to say the right thing is a truly art as well. if we didn't handle it well, we use the mask of anger to hide what we were going to say and let the swearing words cover the simple truth. How to say something before it is too late or how to say something to them before it doesn't matter? Is this life? yes, very much for me, life is a combination of many contrast. Like truth and lies, confession and

主菜:黑胡椒勃勒蘑菇雞肉義大利麵(名字越長感覺越好吃哈哈) 先用大蒜爆香雞肉再放入一些辣椒跟奶油，最後再放入所有佐料 配上嚼勁剛好的麵條，內斂的豐富感完全是大滿足阿 前菜一:奶油法國麵包 前菜二:新鮮沙拉佐蜂蜜芥茉醬 自己下廚的好處就是想吃什麼就可以作什麼 雖然花時間但省錢又有趣 還可以獲得成就感(當然前提是好看又好吃的話) 缺點就是所有的餐點同時上來 用餐的順序也從前菜到主菜改成由熱到冷的順序 沒辦法，沙拉可以冷食，義大利麵冷食就不敢恭維了

(Roundhay park, Leeds) it is the end of my second year in the UK, and it is time to leave Leeds, a city where I stayed for more than 700 days. so I am moving down to London, and aim to be a Londoner for which I don't even know what's that suppose to mean. it is not very pleasant being jobless and still move to the one of the most expensive city in the world, to be honest. However, there is something can't be valued by the money. No pain no gain, from my own interpretation is that I have to suffer from the pain of being short of money to gain the happiness of life, sometimes, life can be more when the budget is less. Well, it is still important for me to get a job to pay the rent, food, and all the bloody bills...

From street vendors to baggers, from waiters to artists, from kids to the grown-ups, they are all the people in Paris.