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因為想起，所以找到，找到那散失的自己的曾經

雖然只有英國的我和一點點那之前的我，可是在茫茫網頁之間

找到自己曾經丟出去的文字及照片，有回收了落下的星星的碎片的感覺。

雖然部落格上的是要給想看的人看的

最好還被推廣，我的卻只有「找到曾經的自己」這樣的功能

可還是要寫些什麼的，像佩索亞說的：

「寫作是堆堆湊湊自己的一天，讓自己原來的悲傷與痛苦喘一口氣」還是我說的？

不重要是誰說或寫的，重點是現在，這個當下

我只感受著文字的魔力，忘記了自己還沒好

醫生開玩笑的說：「等你都好了，就不會再舞文弄墨了吧！」

那麼，現在多寫一點吧！


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